HELL YEAH, SHE DOESN’T BELIEVE ALL THAT BS ANYMOREEEE! APOSTATE! APOSTATE! ✊🏻🩷🩷🩷
Celina
8 June 2025 12:15 PM
Also, her monster/apostate form looks HELLA COOL 💖
burrito
8 June 2025 5:00 PM
the third eye opening with the drink hits hard, my “peak trans” moment coincided with my first time smoking weed so I can definitely relate.
BlackSwallowtail
8 June 2025 11:13 PM
Tread carefully, Riley… Alcohol won’t make you into a different person, but it will make the things you want to say and do seem like a really good idea and the inhibitions seem like not such a big deal. For some, that’s playing with hanging lights or telling your crush you love them.
For others, well, it might mean very casually and coolly saying how much you think this gender stuff is bullshit…
strawby
9 June 2025 12:55 AM
The seeds of doubt started to grow…. good. Let them grow.
Now she won’t be able to unsee the similarities between the two cults
I don’t think she will peak and lash out immediately, but the alcohol might have opened her mind and let her not police her own thoughts about the gendie cult.
Normal Person
9 June 2025 8:02 AM
Although tempting someone into trying alcohol when they haven’t drunk before and obviously have some hangups about it is a pretty murky area… Hm. I admit, seeing the stifled, shame-filled life that Riley lived before makes me hope that this step is in the right direction.
With that said, I really hope Blaire doesn’t encourage bad habits THIS early. Please don’t let Riley’s first time drinking (without food, no less) turn into ‘a few drinks’ so she can ‘really feel it’…
Crypty (has a slasher au ready to go)
9 June 2025 10:18 AM
Apostate Riley FUCKS!!!!! Rusty if you want to 180 into a new genre I for one will be fully supportive!
✂️🍆
10 June 2025 5:01 AM
“And you’d need at least a few drinks to really feel it.” Nah, Riley can be a lightweight like me, who gets tipsy off of 1 wine cooler. 😅
K has strong feelings about this one
10 June 2025 7:33 PM
I’m looking at this page for the third time in as many days and feeling things I can’t fully put into words. Riley’s apostate vision of herself is amazing, I love that and I definitely get the feeling tbh. I’m thrilled she’s breaking more of her conditioning. But I’m severely worried that Blaire might get Riley, who is in a not very stable state right now, to drink more than she’d be comfortable with. And I’m feeling a way about how much Blaire looks and acts like my ex on this page. :’)
Tenbelow
11 June 2025 11:27 AM
Riley you are so crrrAAAAZZY for REEEAAALLLS lol
I mean to sound too judgemental or anything. I understand how and why she can think like that. I mean it’s inescapable. She was a child, she had these foundational ideas of damnation pushed into her young and malleable brain with the intention she believe those ideas as a core foundation for her entire life. She can’t help it.
But it’s also so completely crazy, bonkers and kind of dumb. “Oh no……………. I want to protect a child from a harmful ideology…. I AM A DEVIL? I AM EVIL? I AM A SATAN?”
Meanwhile there are men storming around committing heinous acts of evil and they say to themselves “I deserve to get to do this :)” they might also say “I am Godly and God Says I get to have this and anyone who defies me is Satanic etc :)” and then so many women like Riley who are like “dang I want him to stop doing that so I guess I must be the evil one”
Again I understand it tho. I have to laugh at how Dumb it is because I have ALSO had these dumb thought processes as well. “Wow…. I am the Problem. Obviously….” is such a Woman Experience in the patriarchy. And then later on you’re like “DANG NABBIT THAT WAS SO DUMB OF ME TO BELIEVE THAT I WAS SO OBJECTIVELY NOT THE PROBLEM THERE”
We all have our Dumb Moments when we live in a Dumb Society that wants us to be Dumb so we can be more easy to manipulate rip.
I hope some day Riley can look back at this and laugh a little. WOW I can’t believe I THOUGHT I was a DEMON for something TOTALLY NORMAL. (and in fact noble actually. wanting to protect a kid is noble. Riley doesn’t even Know Faith, she’s not related, she has no reason to give her obvious personal investment etc, but she just Wants To Protect Faith even at the cost of great personal sacrifice…. wow so demonic right. you’re here imagining yourself as a demon instead of a cool knight? riley ur being so lame right now. And again with the Shez chapter so Fresh I can’t help but consider how Shez never considered herself to be Evil even when she was gonna Kill A Dude… it’s cool to have so many entirely different characters with different reactions, the Spectrum of womenhood etc)
It’s the way of the world you have good kind sweet people like Riley going “WOW I’M A DEMON?” and then the AGP Team and Mr President and The Abuser BadMan who are like “Nothing I Have Ever Thought Or Felt Is Wrong” etc etc
And of course like… I mostly focus on the gendery stuff bc I view that as more important then a relationship with alcohol (alcohol is just kinda boring to me sorry everyone) but again, it’s so silly, Riley. “oh all these totally normal women all around me are drinking and that’s fine BUT IF I DO IT, I’M A DEMON” (just like how she didn’t throw demon imagery on Jaden for having Wrong Ideas or Wrong Words)
also i have to laugh at my own duality. most of the time I’m like “WEEH WEH WEH RILEY DEFENSE SQUAD” but at other times I’m like “imagining yourself as a demon? riley pull yourself together there are literal rapists in the world you’re not a freaking demon” it’s the contrarian nature I suppose, other people criticize Riley I gotta defend her, no one is like “A DEMON??? REALLY RILEY????” so I gotta be That Commentor
but u know…. again….. I know she can’t help it. The religious indoctrination is the True Evil. How dare men make women believe this crap about themselves to stifle the heroic act that woman wants to commit. How Dare They…..
….AND ONE MORE THIGN I of course have the agree that Monster Riley rules even tho I have to be like “come on Riley” I love love and support monsters here so it’s obviously the best choice in the story for Riley to keep feeling guilty so that we can keep seeing more sexy monster women. anyway
Riley was so me after having my first drink tbh
HELL YEAH, SHE DOESN’T BELIEVE ALL THAT BS ANYMOREEEE! APOSTATE! APOSTATE! ✊🏻🩷🩷🩷
Also, her monster/apostate form looks HELLA COOL 💖
the third eye opening with the drink hits hard, my “peak trans” moment coincided with my first time smoking weed so I can definitely relate.
Tread carefully, Riley… Alcohol won’t make you into a different person, but it will make the things you want to say and do seem like a really good idea and the inhibitions seem like not such a big deal. For some, that’s playing with hanging lights or telling your crush you love them.
For others, well, it might mean very casually and coolly saying how much you think this gender stuff is bullshit…
The seeds of doubt started to grow…. good. Let them grow.
Now she won’t be able to unsee the similarities between the two cults
I don’t think she will peak and lash out immediately, but the alcohol might have opened her mind and let her not police her own thoughts about the gendie cult.
Although tempting someone into trying alcohol when they haven’t drunk before and obviously have some hangups about it is a pretty murky area… Hm. I admit, seeing the stifled, shame-filled life that Riley lived before makes me hope that this step is in the right direction.
With that said, I really hope Blaire doesn’t encourage bad habits THIS early. Please don’t let Riley’s first time drinking (without food, no less) turn into ‘a few drinks’ so she can ‘really feel it’…
Apostate Riley FUCKS!!!!! Rusty if you want to 180 into a new genre I for one will be fully supportive!
“And you’d need at least a few drinks to really feel it.” Nah, Riley can be a lightweight like me, who gets tipsy off of 1 wine cooler. 😅
I’m looking at this page for the third time in as many days and feeling things I can’t fully put into words. Riley’s apostate vision of herself is amazing, I love that and I definitely get the feeling tbh. I’m thrilled she’s breaking more of her conditioning. But I’m severely worried that Blaire might get Riley, who is in a not very stable state right now, to drink more than she’d be comfortable with. And I’m feeling a way about how much Blaire looks and acts like my ex on this page. :’)
Riley you are so crrrAAAAZZY for REEEAAALLLS lol
I mean to sound too judgemental or anything. I understand how and why she can think like that. I mean it’s inescapable. She was a child, she had these foundational ideas of damnation pushed into her young and malleable brain with the intention she believe those ideas as a core foundation for her entire life. She can’t help it.
But it’s also so completely crazy, bonkers and kind of dumb. “Oh no……………. I want to protect a child from a harmful ideology…. I AM A DEVIL? I AM EVIL? I AM A SATAN?”
Meanwhile there are men storming around committing heinous acts of evil and they say to themselves “I deserve to get to do this :)” they might also say “I am Godly and God Says I get to have this and anyone who defies me is Satanic etc :)” and then so many women like Riley who are like “dang I want him to stop doing that so I guess I must be the evil one”
Again I understand it tho. I have to laugh at how Dumb it is because I have ALSO had these dumb thought processes as well. “Wow…. I am the Problem. Obviously….” is such a Woman Experience in the patriarchy. And then later on you’re like “DANG NABBIT THAT WAS SO DUMB OF ME TO BELIEVE THAT I WAS SO OBJECTIVELY NOT THE PROBLEM THERE”
We all have our Dumb Moments when we live in a Dumb Society that wants us to be Dumb so we can be more easy to manipulate rip.
I hope some day Riley can look back at this and laugh a little. WOW I can’t believe I THOUGHT I was a DEMON for something TOTALLY NORMAL. (and in fact noble actually. wanting to protect a kid is noble. Riley doesn’t even Know Faith, she’s not related, she has no reason to give her obvious personal investment etc, but she just Wants To Protect Faith even at the cost of great personal sacrifice…. wow so demonic right. you’re here imagining yourself as a demon instead of a cool knight? riley ur being so lame right now. And again with the Shez chapter so Fresh I can’t help but consider how Shez never considered herself to be Evil even when she was gonna Kill A Dude… it’s cool to have so many entirely different characters with different reactions, the Spectrum of womenhood etc)
It’s the way of the world you have good kind sweet people like Riley going “WOW I’M A DEMON?” and then the AGP Team and Mr President and The Abuser BadMan who are like “Nothing I Have Ever Thought Or Felt Is Wrong” etc etc
And of course like… I mostly focus on the gendery stuff bc I view that as more important then a relationship with alcohol (alcohol is just kinda boring to me sorry everyone) but again, it’s so silly, Riley. “oh all these totally normal women all around me are drinking and that’s fine BUT IF I DO IT, I’M A DEMON” (just like how she didn’t throw demon imagery on Jaden for having Wrong Ideas or Wrong Words)
also i have to laugh at my own duality. most of the time I’m like “WEEH WEH WEH RILEY DEFENSE SQUAD” but at other times I’m like “imagining yourself as a demon? riley pull yourself together there are literal rapists in the world you’re not a freaking demon” it’s the contrarian nature I suppose, other people criticize Riley I gotta defend her, no one is like “A DEMON??? REALLY RILEY????” so I gotta be That Commentor
but u know…. again….. I know she can’t help it. The religious indoctrination is the True Evil. How dare men make women believe this crap about themselves to stifle the heroic act that woman wants to commit. How Dare They…..
….AND ONE MORE THIGN I of course have the agree that Monster Riley rules even tho I have to be like “come on Riley” I love love and support monsters here so it’s obviously the best choice in the story for Riley to keep feeling guilty so that we can keep seeing more sexy monster women. anyway