I love the way the drinks came out... I wanna drink them so bad... If only alcohol didn't taste disgusting... U_U
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I love the way the drinks came out... I wanna drink them so bad... If only alcohol didn't taste disgusting... U_U
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Monster Riley… devil Riley? Riley about to make the connection that protecting Faith from trans-brand misogyny means acting like a TERF, the most horrifying demons of all? I wonder if this is how she felt when she realized she was a lesbian and therefore bound to be demonized by her family and congregation.
Really though, I wanna know… how many people felt this way when they were close to peaking? I certainly felt like I was doing something Evil And Monstrous the first time I actually sought out radblr and GC literature with the intention to read it (as opposed to the intention to just collect names and “dogwhistles” to run away from). It felt like the act of simply reading material that might lead me to question trans ideology would somehow hurt my trans friends. Crazy, right?
I wonder if Riley is feeling the same way, just with Blaire the Ultimate Ally instead of trans friends. Every time you entertain the notion that the Emperor Has No Clothes, you either blame yourself for not seeing his clothes, or you get closer to logically concluding some things about the people who insist They’re Pure Enough To See The Emperor’s Clothes and feel some kind of way about it. Sadness, or disdain, or… guilt that you felt disdain towards someone you care about.
You know. Guilt that you’re secretly “accusing” your girlfriend of planning something evil for a child, and you know that’s a heavy suspicion, so it feels worse that you don’t have the language to describe why it is evil. Also, her aunt is your boss, and if you make her mad (likely! she gets mad about this issue!) you might lose your job and be homeless. Also also, you want this to work out, because there really are things to treasure about her.
It should be so easy, and I want her to get to the point where she realizes it should be easy… but I get why it’s not. Hang in there, Riley. Maybe a thicker, tougher skin is growing with those monster claws.
I’m actually glad to see we’re being reminded that Riley grew up in a high control group. I don’t think most readers have any clue what it does to you to grow up in a high control group. Riley is actually an incredibly strong and brave person for leaving a high control group *that she’d been indoctrinated in since birth* in order to live a life that she’d been told *since birth* is sinful and evil.
Now Riley is completely without the support network of having a family, something most people have to fall back on when relationships go sour. Blair is her only and entire support network right now, and also her aunt is Riley’s boss + Blair is in training to soon be a manager as well. If Riley upsets Blair she could lose her entire support network and possibly her job. I would go so far to say as speaking up could come with the risk of her ending up on the street homeless if she loses her job and support network.
So yes of course she’s afraid and having a hard time speaking up to Blair!
Poor Riley… Why does she feels like a monster? I guess that happens when we feel out of place and lose our previous convictions…. I really love the metaphore… But it’s really sad that she’s feeling like that… Although that third eye? Yeah… Wide open.
Demon Riley goes crazy, honestly. In a good way. I know its a sad metaphor, but monster girls are always cool 🙂
Yooooooooo are we getting sick ass monster riley for pride month? Little treat for me???? I ALSO love how those drinks vame out they look like a super sweet and fruity champagne cocktail!
Regarding those drinks… Pineapple juice + blended up strawberries + a bit or lime + sprite. My favourite pink sparkly mocktail 😉 btw, has Riley never had alcohol or am I misunderstanding what Blaire meant?
Monster Riley Rights
Would.
“In vino veritas” coming?
I love the ambiguity of the shot on Riley’s fingers around the glass. Clearly she isn’t having a great time, but why? Is it the lingering doubts about the Blaire-and-Faith situation? Or does she have complicated feelings about drinking and Blaire is pushing a completely different boundary?
We know that Riley grew up in a high control group, but she’s clearly been out for some time and has left a lot of their teachings thoroughly behind her — as the last scene shows 😂. I’m sure this isn’t the first time she has had an opportunity to drink something, so perhaps the fact that she hasn’t actually has a reason.
I wonder what experiences she has made with drinking / drunk people. It can be a pretty difficult subject for people, and if she does have real reservations about drinking and Blaire is choosing to ignore that, then that could be a really difficult moment for Riley, especially when she’s already so off-kilter from her realization.
It’s interesting because some of Blaires most sympathetic moments have been situation where she tried to give Riley an experience she missed out on during her childhood (like in the zoo) but at the same time some of her worst moments have stemmed from a similar impulse (making Riley try on dresses so she doesn’t miss out on all the ‘fun’ just because she was forced to wear them as a kid and didn’t like it). I don’t think we know anything about Riley’s stance on alcohol, but presumably Blaire knows more (since they have talked enough about the subject that she knows Riley hasn’t ever drunk alcohol), so it’s hard to know whether this is (at least feasibly meant as a) nice gesture on her part or her pushing a subject that really doesn’t need pushing, which she should know.
Well, the good thing about alcohol when it tastes kind of bad is you don’t drink it quickly or much of it. lol
Alcohol where it tastes like juice, well… Ask me how I ended up drinking to vomiting one New Year’s Eve. lmao Thankfully that only ever happened twice.
Ice wine is like that, but thankfully ice wine is super expensive so when I get it it’s only the tiny bottles, which is absolutely enough to get tipsy, but not to the point of vomiting.
The third eye has opened and the claws are out, yeeeees!!! 🎉
I don’t know why it took me this long to notice, but I see the preview images on the sidebar have Blaire in her original blue dress! Oh, what could have been if the TIM didn’t go to Creep Factor 9 and yank her clothes without her permission.
I love the panel of Riley’s shadowy reflection in the drink, her third eye wide open. Don’t see yourself as a monster, Riley. You’re slowly becoming another of the ferocious force needed to protect other women and girls from the world.
I feel you on booze tasting like ass but looking sooo good. I keep having to remind myself that I’m not drinking it anymore (not a recovering alcoholic, just a personal choice I’ve made) when it taunts me with how pretty and sugary sweet some of them are. Grr. I’ll have to try out the mocktail Apples listed above.